The finger in my life is: imitating the way of speaking and appearing as of my gurus

Khushi ji, that's a sharp catch, but notice what happened right after it. You named the finger clean and precise, no hedging. See if there's a quieter second move now, a small satisfaction in having spotted it so quickly and named it so well. Naming the imitation is not yet the same as asking why the imitation felt necessary in the first place. Stay with that question a while before moving on.