Questioner: Due to my conditioning and fear, mind tries to perceive some ‘thing’ to surrender to. This stops me from actually surrendering. With this conflict, how to understand if there is any movement towards the centre, or is it all at the periphery?
Acharya Prashant: The inner and the outer are not separate. The inner doctor himself is the medicine. Inside, he sits as the doctor that knows everything, the doctor, that is fully conversant with all your illness, and outside he exists as medicines, pills that you can just take in. The external medicine could not have been there without the inner doctor.
I repeat, the medicine is not prescribed by the doctor, in some sense the medicine is the doctor himself. There is no other way the doctor can help you. You perceive yourself to be the body. Right? And that is why you have the illness. Otherwise, how can the illness be there?
Who are you? When you say, “I have illness,” who are you? The body. Right? The body. When you are the body that has illness, obviously you need a material medicine. The only way the doctor can help you is, by giving the material body, a material medicine.
The inner one, that you want to surrender to, is not known to you. The proof of that is that, you feel ill. When you have deep conditioning and fear, obviously you do not know the inner one. Or is the inner one saying that I am conditioned and afraid? Is the inner one talking? Who is talking? The body-mind complex is talking. The body-mind complex is talking that I am afraid, that I am conditioned. It requires medicine in the form of body-mind itself. That’s all that you get.
