Questioner: I have strong ego resistance and my ego resistance is health issues. Sometimes, I wake up at 4’o clock with this heavy migraine and today I woke up with this eye infection and these things, they come and go.
So, I believe it is ego resistance to my meditation. If I stay in the body, if I stay in pain, I am not going to Satsang and meet somebody beautiful like you.
(Questioner smiles)
Acharya Prashant: I think it happens with almost everybody after the mind has been convinced that resistance is unnecessary, then a tendency deeper than the conscious mind comes into play and that is the body. I don’t think one can do much about it. One has to live through it.
So, even when it is booming, one probably has to just carry on.
Questioner: The ego knows me very well. My pain is physical pain. I am attached to that. If I see the mind, I can avoid it. ‘Okay! That’s the mind.’ That’s the mind, nothing. But, you know the pain. The attachment to the body, I guess.
Acharya Prashant: Ultimately, the ego is saying that I am not merely an idea. I am not some mental stuff, which means I am real. I make your knees wobble, I make your skin go red. So, that’s one way of ego to assert itself and prove that it is not merely fiction. There is a reality to it. The ego is saying, “Had I not been real, how would your eyes burn so much? The burning of the eyes proves that I am real.
