A questioner shares his journey of personal transformation after discovering Acharya Prashant's teachings. He explains how he started speaking the truth, which led to losing friends and facing opposition. He also quit eating non-vegetarian food and, after a profound experience while trying to milk a goat, gave up milk as well. Despite these changes and a reduction in attachments, he still feels a persistent, unidentifiable fear of losing something, even though he is willing to let go of friends and family. He seeks to understand the source of this fear. Acharya Prashant explains that the inner turmoil or "mess" is willing to let go of specific things but wants to retain the "option to choose" or the "right to hold on" to something else in the future. One can bear the loss of things they currently hold, but the real challenge is relinquishing the right to grasp onto something else later. Spirituality, he clarifies, is not merely about letting go of current possessions but about ending the very "holder" within—the tendency and intention to grasp. This is where the real problem and resistance arise. We might agree to leave things we currently deem bad, but we want to preserve the right to hold onto something "better" in the future. If the "holder" within is not addressed, letting go of current attachments is futile, as the tendency to hold will simply find new objects. Spirituality targets this root tendency. It reveals the inner inclination to hold onto something—be it high or low, right or left—to perpetuate a sense of incompleteness. We use our attachments to validate our incompleteness, which is a strange logic. Spirituality, therefore, encourages ending this age-old habit of holding and learning to live in pure completeness. Acharya Prashant distinguishes between physical and existential dependence. It is natural to depend on the world for physical needs, like needing a power plant to charge a phone. However, one's existence, one's very being (the Self or Atma), should not be dependent on anyone or anything. One should not feel that their being will be erased if a particular person is not with them. Once this tendency to hold is relinquished, freedom becomes limitless and permanent. Because this is a precious and high achievement, the ego strongly opposes it.